Day 39: Feeling Blessed

Yesterday I talked about uncertainty and feeling out of sorts.  We still don't have J's test results (we are praying he passed), and I'm sure there are many B melt-downs to come.  I am still laying in bed uncomfortable and yearning to be off bed rest, but I am thankful that I am still pregnant.  So rather than focus on the unknowns, the pains, and the difficulties, I started focusing on the positives today.  These are the blessings I thought of today: 

•  I am blessed to have J who has handled our stressful situation and all of his added responsibilities in stride.  I am also blessed to have B, my precious son, who continues to find joy and delight in his play area around my bedside.  The highlight of my day is when he comes home from school and we spend time together reading and talking. 
• I am blessed to have family and friends who are supporting me through this.  I love talking to my amazing mother who understands bed rest and pregnancy (she had seven of us).  She encourages me to keep going (she's pushing for 37+ weeks).  I also love the online support from family and friends (thank you, Facebook!)
• I am blessed to have an amazing set of in-laws who help as needed.  My mother-in-law is here at a drop of a hat to relieve the strain and stress of our situation.  I am very grateful for all the help she has provided.
• I am blessed by the friends and family members who have brought in meals.  We wouldn't have been able to eat without them some days.
• I am so blessed to STILL be carrying a healthy baby boy who continues to thrive with each passing day.
• I am blessed with the gift of time - the one thing we all wish we had more of.
• I am so blessed to be able to bed rest at home, comfortably and able to be with B and J. 
• I am blessed with great doctors who are doing everything in their power for us to have a healthy baby boy.
• I am blessed to have found peace with my situation and know that I can rest and be comforted every day this Baby stays put.

I am just so incredibly blessed.

Day 19: An Awesome Husband

Being on bed rest is difficult for me, and I know B's had to make a lot of adjustments because Mommy has to lay down all day, but it's also taking its toll on J.  He is taking on all my responsibilities, caring for B, getting meals on the table (or tray, in my case), all while carrying his normal work load.  He even does dishes, which is something he abhors.  He's also taken me to and from the hospital, makes my bed every morning, positions my pillows and makes sure I'm set up for the day before he leaves so I can stay in bed.  J also helps me comply with bed rest, though I don't always like hearing that I'm laying wrong, messing up things he just did, or pushing my limits by lifting things, sitting up too much, or "just getting one thing."  He is trying to help me be comfortable, to help me complain a little less (the way I lay dictates whether my back or neck hurt), and ultimately, to help me get Baby Boy here safely and healthily.  All I have to do is lay here while he takes on all the stress.  Plus, he's still healing from his snowboarding accident (I know he's pushing himself to the limits as far as his own comfort and health go in order to help me), and he has his state boards to study for as well.  I have it easy compared to that, so I appreciate my husband who is giving it his all and being patient with me, even though this whole bed rest thing is hard for him too.

 

Contractions get worse for me at night, and I don't want to get used to taking sleeping pills, so I kept J up last night with my inability to get comfortable, so he was tired today, especially after taking B snowboarding yesterday.  But he still got up to help me and B.  He also trudged through four inches of snow and took B to the grocery store to tackle my list, and he even used the coupons I pulled out for him (while on bed rest I've given up couponing for the most part, but still try to use the ones I have).  J is NOT a shopper, so I appreciate that he did that for me. Grocery delivery might still be in our future, though.

 

J did get in a much needed nap while I hung out and read with B.  J went to work and my mother-in-law took his place.  We've had a nice evening of movies, stories, and games.  As busy as I kept today, there were times I forgot I'm laid up, and it's nice to have distractions.  Honestly, bed rest isn't ALL bad, and I know I'm helping out Baby Boy, so I can't complain (well too much anyway).

 

By the way, J already gags at the fact that I'm blogging about bed rest, but I like using it as a journal and chronicling this time in my life, and it's also somewhat therapeutic.  He'd really gag at this post, but I don't care.  I want people to know he's being great through all this.